Can I Just Say?

Can I just say that random roadtrips are fun, even if you just drive to the next city and back. It starts off by AB, one of my friends, calling me and asking if I wanted to head down to Chatty and have some fun. She drove all the way out to my house (I live in the BoonDocks) to get me, and we headed out. We got onto I-75 and drove til we got stuck in some traffic, where I began to rattle off about being indecisve about having kids when I get married. We finally got out of the jam and kept driving. Then, she came up out of the blue and said, "Do you mind if we stop to get me something to eat I'm craving Olive Garden." Of course, I agreed, I mean the OG has the BEST breadsticks ever. So she drops me off out front so I can put my name in the hat. The wait was about 40 minutes. yeah, they were super busy. As we waited, i explained to her my obsession with TWILIGHT. We finally got a table and sat down. As we waited, she decided what to get, while I told her that I was sure that I wasn't hungry. Our waitress was pretty rude and unwelcoming. In fact, she told us several times that they were out of breadsticks, when clearly, there were people around us who had bread. Then she told other customers that there was a customer who was upset because of the no bread situation and said that they could leave if they wanted. UGH how rude can one person be. AB finally got the check, and lo and behold the girl had charged her for the FREE salad and breadsticks!!!! Five extra dollars!!!!!! So, as I went to the car to get it warmed up, she spoke to the manager about the rude little girl. He offered her a free meal next time she's there and to refund her five dollars, but the system was down, so she left without it. Also, while AB was standing there waiting on the manager, the rude little girl told another waitor that, "That girl just stiffed me on the tip!" When she noticed AB standing there, she just turned and walked away, AB said the blood drained from her face. HAHA that's what you get!! So we made our way to Old Navy to shop around. She bought a few things. We were going to go to Target then, she changed her mind. So, we heade home, she brought me all the way back to my house, and now I'm here!!!

Just Another Day

In my heart, I know things are meant to be well. Like the Holidays, for instance. These days shouldn't be spent arguing over petty things, as my family does, just about every year, it never fails. You should be glad you are breathing and that you have a family to spend it with. Yes, I am happy with the gifts given to me, but I would be even happier if Christmas could come one year without arguing and family dismay. It breaks my heart to see my family shatter to bits over one person. Days come and go, but days spent being unhappy with people, especially family, seem to make a person bitter towards the family gatherings at Thanksgiving and Christmas.

I am happy with my gifts, I got everything that I wanted, except one thing. That is love. Not only from family, but I wanted my one and only to come to me this year. But, as I read on my friends blog, maybe my turn will come around next year. If God sees fit that is.

Christmas Time Is Here

Well, Christams is just two days away. I am soo looking forward to Christmas morning because...I am hopefully getting a bracelet that I asked for about 5 months ago...Yeah so i really hope I get it. I am exced to see what my two Nieces will thinkg of their Christmas gifts. I think they will like them...Anyhow, yeah...This is short and sweet.

Nothin' Much To Say

I really don not have much to say, except that I hope that God gives me my big Christmas gift this year...I sure have waited a long time for it.

On a lighter note, I am lovin' this weather right now at this moment. I hope that it stays this way, only, maybe let it get way colder...

I am sooo hungry, and there is a Christmas party later, I'm not sure if I want to go though. I really don't have anything to wear, PLUS it's for the Sunday school class at my church that I'm in. That mainly consists of married adults. Hmmm, should I stay, or should I go? Another off beat fact about the party, it's at one of the teacher's house, who, by the way, has a gorgeous son, who unfortunately has a girlfriend...Oh well...

Anyhow, now that I'm done rambling, I'm gonna go now.

Muddy Water

I'd like to start off this with a story... As I pulled into the driveway at my house, I noticed the amount of mud that has accumulated over the past fewdays from the rain that has decided to take perch over Tennessee. I got out of my car, took a step, and sank at least 3 inches. HAAHAHAHA. Funny thing is, I had on Chacos. Which happen to be river sandals...Yeah my feet became nasty wet with mud. EEWWW I laughed...

Today, I recieved a call from the director of the ministry I volunteer with. She wanted to know if I wanted to come and join her and another volunteer to do some things at the OFFICE. So, later this afternoon, I arrived, only to find out that it was time for me to do the ever famous "Berries and Cream" dance that I love to do for people(it's a commercial for Starburst), on a live feed from the ministry's blog...HAHA it was fun. Anyhow, as the three of us continued to talk to blog readers, we laughed and stuff, like girls do. Anna and I decided to sword fight with not swords, but giganticnormous flowers that stand in the front room. Savvy, eh? Yes, so, first we jousted, then we 'fought' in slow motion. It was a jolly good time...Jolly, what a fantabulous word to say. JOLLY. Then they, being the blog readers that were watching us, to ask us about boys. I invented PRETEND BF from Italy, who shall remain nameless. AB then asked about any boy news, and what I should have said was that, Apparently I have a guy, God just haven't given him to me yet. Fun times.

I'm now gonna give a shout out to AB and Anna...See you ladies in the A.M.

Christmas

So, lately I've been struggling with the fact that I have yet to meet "the One." I know that I'm young and have plenty of time, but at times it feels as though I'm running out of time. I've told God several times what I want in a man, but I have to tell myself over and over again that it's not what I want it's what He wants for me. I have even made a list. Haha I'll share the list later. Anyhow, I feel that I'm getting ready to meet "him" whoever he may be. I know one thing, I'm ready.

::::DROWNING::::

Can't you see I'm going under?
Sinking like a concrete block
Crying out, only to be left unheard
Have you left me?
Should I even ask?
The pressure building up
My chest begins to compress
Lungs collapsing
Can't breathe
Are you going to save me?
Or let me fall to my death
On the black Ocean floor?
I hear your voice
Calling out my name
Is it real?
Or am I dying?
You get closer,
I can feel your arms around me
I feel the pressure start to lift
Slowly you bring me from the depths
You didn't leave me
You came to my rescue
I'm out of the watery depths now
My lungs burning for oxygen
Stable enough to breathe on my own
You raise me to my feet
Only, this time, you pick me up and carry me

Going Under

Lately life has fallen so far down the mountiani that I'm beginning to think I'll never make it back up. It's so difficult being in the Sciences. Sometimes I wonder if I'm even where God wants me to be. Of course, He then proceeds to smack me in the head with some crazy idea of doing medical missions in the summer, reminding me of my one true passion: helping others get well. Or, just helping others all together. I struggle with grades, making it almost impossible not to worry. I just want this to go away. Better yet, I want to go away, far away.

Playin' elf

So today, at Sparkle, we told all those precious little middle school girls that they get early Christmas presents. They were very excited....Really all we got to get them all was this really cool gum ball machine...we thought they may not like it, but no, the LOVED it!! I was so glad. God is sooo good

Been Awhile...

A little update on life...right now it's sucky...I can't seem to pass any of my science exams, which is sad because I am majoring in health science. Good things still do happen,. Next week I'll be in Kentucky at a Global Missions Health Conference. I am very excited about that. YAY!!!! lol. Anyhow, I invested in the Twilight soundtrack, which by the way is AH-MAZING!!! Sparkle programs were yesterday, and that was a little hectic but it worked out, as always. God takes care of His girls. My firends baby shower is this Sunday, I don't want to go, but that would make me a bad friend, not that they don't consider me that already. God will work things out. I know He will

Thursday's list...:)

Today, I am listing again, how great is that? lol, I just don't have anything to write about, so I list things that are random...

barking dogs at 5 A.M. is not fun
I love caffiene
"Sunday Morning's rain is poring..."
"Why Georgia, Why?"
Halloween is friday, which is TOMORROW!!!
being honest, I haven't been praying like I should
Jesus still loves me though
I have to do a formal lab report today...not fun
monkeys sit on my window sill and laugh...
I really don't have a window sill
Sparkle programs are today, and I have to teach
clouds are covering, ever shining with that silver lining
chunky peanut butter is the best
E.Coli is nasty, and it stinks
BLAH!!!!!!!!!!!!

so there you have it, 15 things that are completely irrelevant to life on thursday.

another list

Today's events:

1.Eat my apple, which I loved, it was good
2. go to Micro lecture, and find out that she has cancelled the exam until next tuesday
3. Once again, Jesus greeted me with "Hello Love" this morning, He loves me
4. I skipped chapel, which is okay once in a while
5. One day, I will be in Honduras helping ppl get better
6. I am taking my friend Sarah to my sister's house this weekend, it will be fun
7. I am gonna have a packed semester next semster...
8. My dog was curled up in the patio chair this morning, he is a rather large animal
9. the sunrise was awesome this morning
10. I am going to class now

The List Of NO Tomorrow

So, I like lists, and I made another one on my friends blog, as a comment, but I'm gonna extend it onto here, so it can be longer...YAYAYAY!!!

hmmm...my list...
coffee,
crunching the leaves outside
music
Jesus
clouds that look like bunnies
mountainswriting, even though mine doesn't make sense
singing loudly to stupid songs form the 90's
jumping on the bedd with sade and lea
love
lalalala
sleep, or seep
junk foodtacos
Starlite
mexican food in general
friends who know where I'm coming from
science
immunity to sickness
prayer
cold weather
wind
rain
snow :D
puppies named PeeWee and Samson
oh, Amy Beth lol...
listeners like Jesus
days where there is nothing to do
being lazy
my ministry friends
loving ppl
relationship with God
my journal, that hasn't gotten much attention lately
Sparkle girls
being loved
inspiring photography
taking pictures
deep conversations


Alot of these aren't just blessings, but things I love to do in general...Take the time to reflect, count your blessing, you never know how blessed you are until you do!!:)

A LiSt....a LiSt

1. Today is Tuesday
2. I love Granny Smith Apples, they are yummy ;)
3. Today in Moicrbiology lab, we are testing to see which household cleaners actualy work in killing germs...
4. Smoothies are Grrrrrreat
5. Jesus told me "Hello Beautiful" this morning
6. The T cells in our body are extremely important
7. Antibodies enclose an antigen to eradicate it so we don't get sick, and sometimes they even remember the disease, once being exposed to it
8. I've never worn orange before, and I think i like it, it's the color i have on today
9. I almost put down another number 8 just then...
10. I am in an extremely GOOD mood today!!
11. I had sweet tea this morning, it was yummy :-D
12. I had to end this with an even number, because I have to make things even, it's and OCD thing

No Hope 'Til The End

Here I lie, awake, wondering if the dreamless sleep will ever approach. Restless, tossing, turning, finding no attempt to even doze. Even the droning sound of the fan does not help to lull the sleeplessness from my body. Where do I turn? Nothing can help, and I do not want to be in a drug induced sleep. Chasing my dream of sleep with the light from the computer makes me want to chatter with my best friend, my sister. She isn't here, making that hard. My only hope is built on the rock of my foundation, God. So how do you ask for sleep, espcially when you are wired? you don't you type until you get tired enough to try again.

Teetering Through

To her own demise, she slowly faded from my life. We were once the best of friends, a frinedship now sinking to its watery grave. None like that have I ever known. We vowed to never turn away, yet, it seemed to happen anyways. Fulfilling life's prophecy given by God pulled us in separate directions, she going west, I myself going north. I sometimes wonder why I ever threw that rock over the edge that night. I prayed God's will be done, even if it meant losing her. I ask myself how I could be so stupid, so ignorant. Yet, in a way, I understand. That rock had so much burden transferred to it, that, if I hadn't have thrown it, who knows where I would be or how i would feel now. The life they lead drags me down, the sin the roll in like it's nothing. I sometimes wish to join the party, and then snap back to reality, knowing I have a better call than that. the release since that evening of rock throwing has me feeling light, no longer carrying their lives on my shoulders. Paths are worn, going different ways, she trying to sway me her way, God pulling me ever so closely behind Him. Gladly, I follow, not knowing the path He leads me on. In the end, things will be alright. I need not worry, for He guides me safely through the night.

Life Without Love...

OMG!!!!!!!!! this week, I have NOTHING to really study for...and i am absolutely going CRAZY!!! lol...Nah I am just really waiting on Fall Break, which is next week, and NOV 21!!!! the premier of TWILIGHT the movie...which is awesome...anyhow, back to the real world...Everyday I live, I feel myself growing in God, learning about Him, His love for me (which by the way IS everlasting), and how I should be faithful to Him, just as He is to me! His grace is sufficient, and I know that!! Well, that's all for now!!!

Aside From Yesterday...

OMG!!! So the past few days have been such a blur. I really didn't get much sleep, so much of my chatter was incoherent and made absolutely NO sense...lol...Anyhow...I am much better now, and just needed to say it in words...:)

Check up

In light of not being able to sleep, I have to write so ha. I really cant slepp and thats all i hae to say, except for the fact that I'm craving sweet tea and I'm hungry'

"...Another One Bites The Dust..."

Anger and frustration flood through me like fire in my veins. I wish for once that 'jealous' friend would realize that I have other things occupying my life besides her. As the flooding continues, Ifeel the ever desperate need to scream, and when I do, I feel no one will hear my cry of despair. I almost feel like quitting, giving up my dream, but, I know I'm here for a purpose. It's almost like I'm so called "growing up" faster than a friend or two, while they are stuck in party mode. i don't want to feel so old against my life loving friends, but as they party their lives away I bust it to make it through school, and they sit at home wondering why i never come around and then complain when I tell them I have homework. So, how does one go about fixing this problem, which is supposed to be gone mind you, I threw that rock away. One doesn't fix this problem, they lay it out in front of God's loving face. I want the anger and frustration to go away, and again, I had two rocks, and threw them both...yet it still creeps up in the night, like a silent killer waiting for me to burst. My thoughts begin to scatter, I can't think, my mind blurs, and I scream from the inside. Nothing helps, it only builds, higher and higher, until one day, I will tell them that no more will I come around, I'm moving on. It's all a depressing thought, I try not to think it, but it has to be done.

Sunrise At My House

So, the view is splendid from my front porch, when the sunrises. I get a direct look at the sun star coming up over the mountains in the east. God is so Glorious for giving us such a beautiful life. i do not think that without Him, a sunrise could be this wonderful.
The song, "In Wonder" by the Newsboys describes this picture perfectly. I was astounded when I saw this picture, well, and of course the real thing. I immediately knew that the retreat I was getting ready for was going to be AMAZING. And it was. God grants us certainty in strange ways, but He knows that we can handle it...

Lately

So, lately I've been contemplating on what it means to be a Science nerd...Here's a list:

1. You love love love science
2. You ador the fact that, when stuck in an incubator, bacteria on agar truly grows, and the colors are fascinating.
3.You and your "nerd" friends get excited when it's time to collect data from the things that you've grown...oooh it's fun...
4. You confuse your non-science loving friends by rambling on about microbial pathogens that are aiming to take over the earth...
5. You get easily all happy-fied when your experiment works...yay

There you have it...A list to comply with if you are anything like the science "nerds" i thouroughly enjoy being around, and that includes myself

Mirrors

I recently went to see the movie Mirrors. I had gotten some opinions before I went just to see what I might be in for. All of the opinions I got were relatively the same. Everyone chimed in in saying that it pretty much was a dumb movie and was no good. I have to beg to differ on that. I found that the movie was intensly mind-intriguing. To be able to enjoy a movie as such, one would need to be immensly wrapped up in the paranormal states of the mind and of the environment around us. Most people today set aside all of the old superstitions and tales of ghosts and paranormal activity. They shrug at it and simply choose to say that none of it exists. When in fact, we as people encounter the paranormal's antics and enities while completely unaware. The entities are all around us and thus choose who they want to see or hear them. Call me crazy, it's just how I feel.

Oh Every Afternoon

:::Ten Songs To Ponder:::

1.That's Just the Way We Roll by The Jonas Brothers

2. Billie Jean covered by David Cook

3.East to West by CAsting Crowns

4.For Who You Are by Hillsong

5.From the Inside Out by Hillsong

6.Here's My Life by Barlow Girl

7. How Great Is Ou God by Chris Tomlin

8.King of Glory by Josh Bates

9.A Little bit Longer by The Jonas Brothers

10.Mighty To Save by Hillsong

These songs are in no preference order. It's just how I came to them on my iPod. The songs that are on my list have either touched my life through God or just songs that I really like. yes there are a few that most people would never admit listening to, but I have no shame in the music I choose to listen to. If you ever get a chance, take a listen to a few of these. You might find yourself surprised at what you like...

First Blog

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