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In light of not being able to sleep, I have to write so ha. I really cant slepp and thats all i hae to say, except for the fact that I'm craving sweet tea and I'm hungry'

"...Another One Bites The Dust..."

Anger and frustration flood through me like fire in my veins. I wish for once that 'jealous' friend would realize that I have other things occupying my life besides her. As the flooding continues, Ifeel the ever desperate need to scream, and when I do, I feel no one will hear my cry of despair. I almost feel like quitting, giving up my dream, but, I know I'm here for a purpose. It's almost like I'm so called "growing up" faster than a friend or two, while they are stuck in party mode. i don't want to feel so old against my life loving friends, but as they party their lives away I bust it to make it through school, and they sit at home wondering why i never come around and then complain when I tell them I have homework. So, how does one go about fixing this problem, which is supposed to be gone mind you, I threw that rock away. One doesn't fix this problem, they lay it out in front of God's loving face. I want the anger and frustration to go away, and again, I had two rocks, and threw them both...yet it still creeps up in the night, like a silent killer waiting for me to burst. My thoughts begin to scatter, I can't think, my mind blurs, and I scream from the inside. Nothing helps, it only builds, higher and higher, until one day, I will tell them that no more will I come around, I'm moving on. It's all a depressing thought, I try not to think it, but it has to be done.

Sunrise At My House

So, the view is splendid from my front porch, when the sunrises. I get a direct look at the sun star coming up over the mountains in the east. God is so Glorious for giving us such a beautiful life. i do not think that without Him, a sunrise could be this wonderful.
The song, "In Wonder" by the Newsboys describes this picture perfectly. I was astounded when I saw this picture, well, and of course the real thing. I immediately knew that the retreat I was getting ready for was going to be AMAZING. And it was. God grants us certainty in strange ways, but He knows that we can handle it...

Lately

So, lately I've been contemplating on what it means to be a Science nerd...Here's a list:

1. You love love love science
2. You ador the fact that, when stuck in an incubator, bacteria on agar truly grows, and the colors are fascinating.
3.You and your "nerd" friends get excited when it's time to collect data from the things that you've grown...oooh it's fun...
4. You confuse your non-science loving friends by rambling on about microbial pathogens that are aiming to take over the earth...
5. You get easily all happy-fied when your experiment works...yay

There you have it...A list to comply with if you are anything like the science "nerds" i thouroughly enjoy being around, and that includes myself