"...Another One Bites The Dust..."

Anger and frustration flood through me like fire in my veins. I wish for once that 'jealous' friend would realize that I have other things occupying my life besides her. As the flooding continues, Ifeel the ever desperate need to scream, and when I do, I feel no one will hear my cry of despair. I almost feel like quitting, giving up my dream, but, I know I'm here for a purpose. It's almost like I'm so called "growing up" faster than a friend or two, while they are stuck in party mode. i don't want to feel so old against my life loving friends, but as they party their lives away I bust it to make it through school, and they sit at home wondering why i never come around and then complain when I tell them I have homework. So, how does one go about fixing this problem, which is supposed to be gone mind you, I threw that rock away. One doesn't fix this problem, they lay it out in front of God's loving face. I want the anger and frustration to go away, and again, I had two rocks, and threw them both...yet it still creeps up in the night, like a silent killer waiting for me to burst. My thoughts begin to scatter, I can't think, my mind blurs, and I scream from the inside. Nothing helps, it only builds, higher and higher, until one day, I will tell them that no more will I come around, I'm moving on. It's all a depressing thought, I try not to think it, but it has to be done.