God Gave Me You

Wow. It has been a while since I last updated. A lot has went on in my life since that October day that I last blogged to the cyber world. Many ups, and many more downs than one 23 year girl should ever experience during grad school. However, right now, I am in one of those "up" periods of life. I have been fighting it for so long, but I finally gave in, and let me tell you. It is amazing. I believe God may have moved a certain person into my life. GOd works in funny ways, and he also answers prayers when you least expect it. He did for me.

**Just look at the title of the post, and you will understand :)

Date.

Okay, not that anyone cares, but tonight, I am going on my first date :) I couldn't help but write a short blog on it. So, if you know me, now you know!!! ::excited face::

Memories: Starlite

This day is like yesterday for me :) It was my first day working with Starlite as an "almost Cabinet Member."

This was my first retreat with all the beautiful ladies who impacted my life so much  that they will never know.

The same retreat, we went to this waterfall. God's Creations amaze me to no end.

This heart went into a Valentine's Day card for the ladies at the Smokey Mountain Widow's home. Best. Day. Ever.

This picture was taken at a volunteer picnic before I was on Cabinet, by my now best friend, Cassidy (who was also in Starlite).

HAHA. This was our last outing as a team. We went to the aquarium/Creative Discovery Museum, and became little girls just one more time together.

I'm pretty sure I could have cried a million times on this day, but I (we) didn't. 

See. We had fun being crazy (mainly me being crazy). 

Oh Anna, you are just too funny :)

Henry and Flo, the starfish. 

The end of a great afternoon together :)

I just felt like reminiscing a little today. Starlite was a big part of my college life, and it is something that I will never forget, especially all of the amazing friends I gained in the process. 

These memories are sacred. 

I was blessed to be apart of something great. I loved each and every meeting, outing, prayer/worship meeting, Life Group night, sleepover, and of course, the time we decorated the office for Christmas and I did a little "dance" to stay warm while outside. These girls will forever be in my heart.

I love you all!

Fire.

As of late, I haven't written at all. 


Honestly, I haven't felt the drive to write, and the inspiration just wasn't there. There have been many things that I have been through in the last few months, and I only recently let it all go. 


The Story Starts:


I'm in a car, headed to Atlanta with a dear friend of mine. Where are we going? To a mega church called Passion City Church. Now, if you know anything about the Passion Conferences, then you know that Louie Giglio is the pastor at said church. His worship leader just happens to be Chris Tomlin. This particular night was set to be a night of total worship and communion. The spirit fell. Chains were loosed, people were free, I felt my spirit become lighter and freer. It was a much needed night of rejuvenation. 


Now, I am working hard as ever to keep the fire on me so I can go in the way He wants me to go. Again, I have said, lead me and send me. I will go.

Washed.

There have been many things going on lately in the life of me. I just figured that if I have any readers out there (which is a BIG if), I would let you all know that I am not dead, nor did I fall off the face of the earth.

I have been struggling with many things and quite frankly, I just haven't felt like writing anything. Shocking, I know, especially since I like to talk. A lot.

What I really need is a long vacation to my favorite spot in the world, where it wouldn't be a vacation at all, but a mission to help the sick and cure the hungry. If I could, it is where I would be permanently.

It's raining as I look out my office window, and I feel like it is washing away everything that I have feared, hated, cared about, and missed in the past month. (Just the month, nothing more) I am glad of this because I know that it is God showing me that He's got this whole thing called life under control and that I should quit worrying, quit trying to control my life, and that He loves me.

Thoughts on a Racing Mind

Sometimes there are things that you cannot get off your mind. Right now, there is something weighing on my mind and preventing me from focusing. It makes me feel obsessive, even though in reality I really am not. It just sometimes fuzzes up my clarity in thinking. I wish that I didn't get this way over things, but I can't stop it. It over takes me, and boom, my mind is gone. It drives me crazy because all I want to be is normal, or you know, not bogged down by my racing thoughts.

I feel trapped inside because no one understands, even I do not understand why I get like this.

I know that God has it in his hands, but for some reason, I can not wrap my feeble, racing mind around the thought that I do not have to obsess over it. All I can do is lay it down again, and hope that it eases off for awhile.

Beauty and Weddings

I have been without my camera for like two weeks now. Until today. It arrived back on my doorstep, good as new.

Of course, as soon as the sun came out, I put it to work, and this is what I got. (To the left.) I love this shot. It reminds me of God's beauty and his love.

How can anyone look at an image like that and deny God's existence? It has to be impossible. I mean, how can anything this beautiful spawn from nothing. It took someone with a lot of creativity, love, and care to make something like this.

Saturday, my good friend is getting married and two of my friends and me are hopping in a car and driving to her wedding early that morning. I am so excited. 1. Because I haven't seen Christin or Danielle in like a year, and 2. I haven't seen the bride (Johni) since we arrived at University from our trip to Honduras last July. It's going to be FUN FUN FUN FUN.